even more in love with you

2004-02-18T15:53:00.000-05:00

yay i got into college!! when i got deferred from BU i decided that i did'nt like it anymore (even though, secretly, it is like the love of my life)...so i applied early decision to the george washington university...and i got in!! omg i am so excited...it was my 2nd choice and its pretty hard to get into also.. (its rated like a 91 out of 100 for difficulty of getting in at princetonreview.com) so i feel very proud of myself :).. but now my parents are flipping out cause it costs 39,000 a year, and we applied for financial aid and they gave us back our estimated family contribution of $38,000!!! so that means they are willing to give us like 1,000 dollars in fin aid!! and we aren't by any means rich! it sucks....but then i guess my parents filed their taxes last night and now it's saying that we have to pay 21,000...so its' down a little.....but..ugh...my parents say they "aren't willing to sacrifice" their lives for me to go to college..blah blah blah..anyway...omg i am really excited for senior year to be over ad to go to college!! ahahahha!! lol..... hmm what else is new?....i have been working a LOT on my health fair..it's looking good..it is on march 22 and i have 16 guests coming as of right now...(my goal was 10) so i'm good... its very very stressful but it's coming along..
ummmm....my valentines day---was ok..chris and i went to nyc and just walked around, went shopping, ate dinner ....it was fun... and then i got really sick..it sucks but he's sick too so it's ok.... i've been sick since friday with strept and then it turned into a really bad cold.. :-/ anyway..i am staryting to get better now, now that i have missed a bilion days of school.

2004-01-20T21:44:00.000-05:00

wow i haven't written in here in forever..ugh..well lets see...i am COMPLETELY stressed out and ready for high school to be over...too much homework, senior project is killing me, college.....dont even get me started...blah blah blah....i got deferred from my one true love--that is, boston university...ahhhhhhhhhh i love that fucking school but oh well...thats life....i also got deferred from tulane university---my SAFETY fucking school...wow i suck...i work my ass off for 4 years and what do i get?? nothing... well i guess i still have another chance at both.. hmm...anyway...i've gained like 10 pounds from the holidays and i am fat so i feel like shit about myself...but thats ok lol.....wow..this is depressing why did i even start writing in here???

2003-08-13T19:48:00.000-04:00

i miss my christopher!!!!!! waaa.. this sucks..all i have been doing is work!! and usually all i am ever doing is chris!! haha just kidding lmao...still..this sucks alot... :( i am lonely and tired but i have tomororw off thank god..and he is supposed to come home friday supposedly...hmm.. on friday i have to go to staples in danbury to get trained on the register..joy..lol..and for all of you that wanna know-- staples should be open on sunday hah...now i am advertising for them...well it is my mom's bday so i am going to go eat cake :)

My Current Mood: happy cause I DON"T HAVE TO WORK TOMORROW!!!!!!
Listening To: Why Can't I... liz phair?

2003-08-08T22:34:00.000-04:00

well i started my new job at staples the other day...its not bad..i like it actually..its fun since the store isn't open yet so we are just stocking shelves and all that fun stuff...i like most of hte people there too...they are mostly all young people...its fun..but it suckls cause i have to work soo much ..i've been working 9-5 every day so far..and next week i am scheduled to work 40 hours..which is like a fulltime job...9-5 every day except thursday..sucks!! but lots of money :) ..hehe.. i am soo excited caues i need to go shopping.. oh well tomorrow i am goin to ny to some fair with a bunch of my family that lives there...interesting.. i have tomororw and sunday off yyes!! lol..

My Current Mood: happy
Listening To: You're SO Vain

2003-08-04T21:02:00.000-04:00

well today i went to teh school to talk to mr. teravainen but of course he wasn't there...so i have an appt with him near the end of august... then i went over to lindsay's house and we just sat around and talked and then when i was going home it was raining soooo hard..it was scary..for like 5 minutes i couldn't see anything!1 it was really scary driving in it..hmm..then i came home and went out for ice cream with my mom and brother...and i saw theresa there with her family... and i heard that josh and jenny's dad died today of a heart condition or something... i feel really bad...i don't know any of them or anything but i can't imagine.. (and i'm not even close to my dad at all!)...and today is tyler's bday.. i wonder how his family is doing.. they are moving soon i think...i've seen them packing their car up alot and mrs. horrigan called my mom the other day about having a tag sale or something in the neighborhood... i dont want the horrigans to move!! it's sad..theyve like been my neighbors forever , not really but it is going to be really weird without them around... ..hmm...

My Current Mood: tired
Listening To: Ashanti

2003-08-02T00:10:00.000-04:00

ugh i'm bored..i don't even have anything to say on here i just have nothing else better to do then write :)...I fucking miss my boyfriend!!!!! and lindsay is on vacation so i have no one to do things with or talk to since they are basically the only people i ever hang out with/talk to.....lol...yeah i'm a loser i know..hehe...well anyway...angela if you are reading this--do you remember josh onlien??? from a really really long time ago when i used to talk to him and i would tell u about him?? lmao...well today i went on another sn and he imed me! lmao i haven't talked to him in like 3 years..it's hilarious.....hah oh and if you are reading this--are you going tot hat ya meeting on the 5th?? tell me if u are lol maybe we could carpool or something..ugh i'm sooooo bored and tomrorow i have to go to a family picnic thing in upstate ny..HA! my favorite place in the world..(yea right) i hate it there sooooooooo much ...but o well..anything that will take my mind off of missing chris :)...lol...

My Current Mood: tired but i don't feel like goin to bed
Listening TO: Feed My Sheep- What you'll get (Greg's band)

2003-07-30T11:22:00.000-04:00

ugh... chris left this morning for vacation :( and now i wont see him for 2 weeks and i probably wont talk to him either since he is going to be driving around alot... :'( waaaaaaaaaaaaaa... anyway-- i got the job at staples..i FINALLY have a job!! i'm sure everyone is very proud of me.. heh......i start on the 6th of august even though they aren't opening then.. i went to look at Fordham University yesterday and we got to the information session and i was like.. um no i am not going here so we left when everyone else went on the tour lol...it's like a really really religious school and you have to take theology courses while you are there adn all of that...and that is very much not me..i 'm not into that at all... so my mom was pissed cause i didn't figure that out before she took the day off of work to drive there for an hour lol....so now i have to really research some schools to go look at..adn my dad is an asshole cause everytime i bring up school hes either like "i can't afford to pay for it.." so i am paying for my own college..and then the other day i was like 'i want to go look at univ. or RI" and he was like "i'm not throwing away my money to send you to some party school" and i was like 'um i am paying for my own college so i can go wherever the hell i want thank you very much' and i was like 'dad.....there is like a party every weekend at shepaug and i have yet to go to one of them' and hes like 'yeah well things change in college' like he doesn't trust me or somtehing.....fucking asshole i hate him... and anytime i tell him or talk to him about where i want to go he's like ''your motives are all wrong ' like i dont know what i want and..ughhhhh i could go on forever.....i am just not going tot ell him where i get in until the day i leave for college and then i'll be like "bye " lol.....ughhh... hmm not much else is new...

My Current Mood: sad :(
Listening To: You're so vein- how to lose a guy in 10 days soundtrack

2003-07-27T21:03:00.000-04:00

well i just got back from marthas vineyard...it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be lol i actually had alot of fun despite the fact that my family is retarded and for the most part i hate spending time with them except my mom lol...but we went shopping alot and to the beach and i got pretty tan...i got anew skirt, a cool purple watch and a sweatshirt and my parents finally agreed that i can get a belly button ring!!!!!!! i'm really excited..oh and tomorrow i have a job interview at staples...so i am havin fun ...now i am just sitting around reallllllly hot and my family is unpacking lol while i'm on the computer hoping that chris comes over :( and chris is going on vacation in like 2 days and his parents said i could go with him too but i dont think i can cause i will prob have to work...but anyway i'll ask him tomorrow when i go...and also we have a stupid youth leadership meeting sometime during those 2 weeks he'll be gone that i have to go to (angela haha) my mom is forcing me cause i didn't go to the last bike day thing cause i got really sick the night before and had to call him that day and say i couldn't go...and when i talked to giles he said that the next meeting i think it is aug. 5 or something..is really important according to him......so my mom is like 'you have to go' but i might try to get out of it if i dont have to work till after we get back....anyway...i'm going to bed i think cause i have to be at staples at 9 and i'm SOOOOOO tired right now my famiyl gets up at the crack of dawn every morning on vacation with some adventure to do haha...

My Current Mood: tired and happpppy to be home
Listening To: John Mayer- neon?

2003-07-19T10:56:00.000-04:00

yesterday i visited northeastern university...and i really liked it so that's good..i'm excited cause it's a safety school for me...and today i was supposed to go to a youth leadership activity but i was really sick this morning so i didn't..and tomorrow i am leaving for vacation :(

My Current Mood: sad
Listening To: nothing

2003-07-16T13:26:00.000-04:00

wellllll.... hmm what is there to say in here? lol....i applied for a job at staple and i really REALLY hope i get a job there..and i volunteered at the hospital and i volunteered at habitat for humanity last saturday also..so i am getting lots of community service hours which i'm happy about...today i need to call this lady about an internship at the hospital in the fall and i'm excited about that too....hmm...last night me and chris went to ruby tuesday for dinner and then we were going to see legally blonde 2 but we decided to just rent movies instead and go to my house...so we watched Just Married and Punch Drunk Love... they were good..but somewhere in the middle i started flipping out on him lol (pms)....he was like... "now that i just took you to a nice dinner and you are beautiful, can we fool around?" and i just got sooooo pissed lol....and so we got in a fight (actually it was just me mad)..and i started crying and hes' like "it was just a joke.. " and then it went into a bunch of other issues that have been going on between us...cause i had told him the other day that it pisses me off when he says that or does that because he makes it seem like that is all he cares about..and its not the point that that was just a joke..its just the fact that heknows that that makes me upset... he knows that very well and still jokes with it.. and ugh things have just not been good between us lately....something is missing and i'm not sure what it is...it's like our relationship is slowly dieing or something... i dont know we have communication issues lol.....so hopefully that will get resolved...

My Current Mood: tired (i just woke up and its 1 pm!!!!!! that is very late for me this summer!)
Listening To: Counting Crows- Mr Jones

2003-07-14T11:13:00.000-04:00

ugh yesterday i had the worst cramps in the world.. usually i can take 2 excederin and they go away....but yesterday i took 4 and they were still like completely horrible i was about to die..i could hardly move and i'm like in the bathroom screaming for my mom to go get me some midol and so i'm lying on the couch waiting for her to come home and chris comes over ha..i was like.....omigod i am going to kill you...but then i felt better once i took the medicine thank god ..i seriously thuoght i was going to have to go to the hospital or something...lol..well today i am going to the hospital to do some volunteering in a little while then i am going to staples to try to get a job.. i went in there the other day and they said i could come back today and apply on the computer thing there so i'm excited....

My Current Mood: crampy and tired lol
Listening To: snoop- beautiful

2003-07-06T02:06:00.000-04:00

well i hope everyone had a great 4th of july ;)..i sure did!!....me and chris got chinese food for dinner adn then went to mike mcgordys party thing and parked there and walked to the fireworks at shepaug and it was alot of fun :) ....and then today i worked at a 4th of july party in bridgewater...huge party w/fireworks better than shepaug's lol...these people are sooooo rich....they had 300 guests that i had to servelol...ugh i am soooooo tired and my arms i can barely move...but i am too hyped up on caffeine to get any sleep..even though its 2 am lol..it was fun though and i got paid generously hehehe...ugh ..however, i have come to the conclusion that i hate working w/girls..i despise girls lmao....they're just so...............bitchy, moody, and they all think they're better than everyone else.i hate working w/them...i got along w/all the guys working there bussing /waiting w/me but the damn girls...i hate them!!!!!! lmao..its true..girls are just so competitive and so i dont know....lol ughhhhhhhhh....anyway...i really want to go to manhattan next week sometime for the day to go shopping...alone ..lol....i'm excited ..cause i really need/want new clothes! hmm..hopefully i will plan something sometime soon......okk well i suppose i should try to get some sleep even though i am wide awake....

My Current Mood: awake although i shouldn't be
Listening To: nothing!!!

2003-07-01T18:52:00.000-04:00

well hmm what did i do today? well i woke up at around 11:30 and then i went out to lunch with tracy at around 1:30 to chinese food!! yumm!! even though i only like 1 type of chinese food, i still love going..hehe....then...i got yelled at by my parents cause they came home from work all pissy and apparently the car that i ususally drive almost blew up adn needed over $400 in repairs...soo i got yelled at, because of course it is my fault that shit hit the fan with the car..even though i dont know anything about cars...its still my fault of course....and then my dad was just really really pissy and he started screaming at me and my brother for stupid things...like for example...i had my towel in the computer room cause my dad was taking a shower in the upstairs bathroom, and so i coudln't go put it in the bathroom right then...well he came out and started flipping out on me cause i had the towel in the computer room.ughhhhhhhh he is a fucking jerk i can't stand him...oh well i'll be gone soon...thank god...haha..and then we went and picked up the car, and my dad was in agood mood then, surprisingly and he gave me money to fill the car up with gas...and then i went and visited chris at work and he told me he was going to kill greg (because he has a baseball game against bristol tonight or something and greg is a pitcher on their baseball team who likes me for those of you who don't know)...and its dumb cause knowing him he probabyl will say somethign obnoxious to greg...oh well...lol...then i went to blockbuster and returned a movie adn got "how to lose a guy in 10 days" so i am gonna watch that tonight...then i came home and made pasta for dinner and ate it and now i am bored and talking to nicole online doing absolutely nothing cause i am extremely bored. that was my day in a nutshell haha..for those of you who actually care.

My Current Mood: full of food!!
Listening To: The Calling- Adrienne

2003-06-30T14:21:00.000-04:00

ugh this sucks!!! i can't believe i went down on my SATs..omigod i am so pissed off i can't believe it.. I thought this one seemed easier..this sucks so much for me, although most people might consider what i got the first time a good score, i dont think it is...for the colleges i want to go to , the average is a lot higher than what i am getting...i dont know what i am going to do cause i have my heart set on 2 colleges that i will probably never be able to get into now.. :( ugh...i'm so bored too.. i don't know what to do with myself..no one is around..my family went camping in rhode island or something last night and tonight i guess..so i dont know what to do..i am trying to see if tracy wants to do something tonight but she is not responding lol...ughhhhh oh well

My Current Mood: bored and pissed
Listening To: Mya- Ride and Shake

2003-06-30T00:08:00.000-04:00

waaaaaaaa i did bad on my sats..this sucks i went down like 50 points...damnit i thought this one was easier too...might as well kill myself

My Current Mood: pissed off
Listening To: Sarai- Ladies

2003-06-28T23:17:00.000-04:00

oo i had a really good day today...this morning chris woke me up and we went to steep rock on a picnic and ate french toast :)!! hehe....then he went to work, and i went home and lyed in the sun and then later on i went out on the boat w/my family and just sat around on the lake..that was nice...then i came home, and the downfall of my night-haha..i really really wanted to go to the mall cause my grandparents gave me money for my report card...(ooo i got all A's and an A+ on my trig exam, and a..............A+ on my spanish 6 exam!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was sooooooo hard i thinks he had to have mixed my grades up w/someoen elses, or i must have had good luck)...and so i wanted to go to the mall, but earlier in the day my car almost blew up haha..and it overheated so i can't drive it for 2 days...so i wanted chris to drive me but his mother wouldn't let him..so i got pissed..so we went to Eleni's for dinner instead..that was fun anyway..then we went to victorias secret and gap in souhbury but both were closed :( and i got pissed again cause i realyl wanted to buy new clothes... and now SAT scores are mailed monday (eek)..lol...but....i'm hoping (knock on wood lol) that i did really well since i thought i failed my spanish, and trig exam but ended up getting an A+ on both..so i'm hoping maybe i had good luck on my SATs but i doubt it hehe...oh well i'm goin to bed..goodnight!!

My Current Mood: sunburnt and tired
Listening To: Ashanti

2003-06-26T15:51:00.000-04:00

once again, it is sooo hot...i feel like i'm about to die... ugh it's 4:00 and i haven't taken a shower yet cause i'm too lazy and too hot...i am sooo bored...i think i'll probably just end up watching a movie by myself tonight...tomrorow i start my volunteer job at the hospital in the morning...i'm kinda scared...oh well it shouldn't be too bad tomorrow anyway since i'm being trained... hmm my mom just went to costco and i am hoping that when she comes back she brings yummy popsicle things that i told her to buy back for me!!.. ugh last night i got no sleep..i ended up actually falling asleep at 3:30..and then chris came over early this morning and woke me up at like 9:30... i'm not actually that tired though surprisingly...oh well i'm sure i will be tomorrow when i have to get up early and go to the hospital.

My Current Mood: hot and lazy
Listening To: Moulin Rouge- Love Medley

2003-06-25T12:58:00.000-04:00

ugh its so hot...i guess i shouldn't be complaining though, the heat is better than a cold, rainy summer..i got my senior pictures taken yesterday and my mom is pissed cause she didn't look at the prices until after i guess...and he took like 200 pictures of me and then the packages are sooo much money and you can only pick from like at the most, 4 of the poses that he took ouf of the 200...its dumb...hmm...oh and then chris came over after work last night and we fought and i cried and we yelled at each other..and then randomly before we knew it we were on the floor....hehehe.... umm...theresa and i are going out in a little while to look for jobs hah...i need a job soo badly...my mom is getting so pissed cause she has to pay for all of my stuff..oh well... later i will have to tell you all where i looked for a job and if i get a job..haha

My Current Mood: hottttt
Listening To: Mya- Free

2003-06-24T10:12:00.000-04:00

I HATE GUYS

2003-06-23T20:36:00.000-04:00

well i went to lake compounce for the day w/ lindsay, ania, amanda and kara...it was fun...lots of roller coasters and water slides heh...it was nice cause it was the first actually hot day of summer....i'm just hoping that i didn't get sunburnt today now cause my senior picture is tomorrow.. lol....oh well now i'm just sitting around watching Meet The Parents and eating ha...i'm gonna go to the store and get a smoothie :) ha just thought you'd all like to know...

My Current Mood: happy /tired
Listening To: im so into you- fabulous (ft. ashanti).. <----good song!! :)

2003-06-22T12:44:00.000-04:00

its summer!... i haven't done much..i need a job really bad i'm thinking about Staples in new milford lol cause it will be opening soon and as my mom said "if you get a job there, no one else will knwo what they are doign either since its just opening" so i was like..hmm good idea...lol...last night i had a "me night" hehe..i just watched movies, wrote in my journal, read a book, talked to some guys on the internet..haha...thats about it....today i'm gonna hang out w/chris probably my parents just left....i dont know... thats about it... :)
I'm really bored so i'm gonna fill out a survey......heheh

1.do you shave? yes of course :)
2.what do you shave? hah well ..everything that a girl is supposed to shave i suppose...... hehe
3.why? cause i like it better, and it feels nice
4.what colour is your razor? at the moment..white.
5.what size is your bed? queen
6.do you like it? yes i love my bed
7.you're going on a date for a walk around the lake then a coffee at a cafe. what do you wear FROM your closet? if it was winter,..probably a sweater and jeans...if summer..probably shorts and a tank top..
8.Would you go naked in a bathtub with a naked old man/woman with each of you having a bar of soap and soap each other till the bars of soap run out for a million dollars? yes probably lol i need money desperately..
9.if you woke up one morning and found out you were going to stay in the body you have now for the rest of your life, what would you think? well...i would probably be happy..its better than getting old..
10. letter or e-mail? letter
11.if world war III broke out, what would you say? i'm not sure..i would most likely be worried and sad.
12.buttons or boxes? huh????
13.which 5 people do you trust and are open with the most? christopher, lindsay, tracy, my mom, greg..
14.what's something a guy will wear that'll turn you off? when guys where tank tops it completely turns me off.
15. what's something a guy will wear that'll turn you on? nice cologne and a sweater.
16. what do you think of soulmates? i'm not really sure actually..
17.florida or cali? cali
18.is the world screwed? ha...um....i would have to say yes..
19.is cussing a neccesity in life? nope definitely not
20.what's an object you can't live without? probably my eyeliner..(haha)...seriously though which is pretty sad..
21.can you live without the microwave? yes
22.You have this uh, erotic dream about your friend of the opp. sex. how do you act and feel around that friend the next day? sexy/horny hahah
23.would you rather be rich with 15 spoiled brats or just barely making it with a dog? barely making it w/a dog..i hate brats..especially girls..
24. how's your schoolwork for you right now? its SUMMER!!!!!! hehehe...
25.what's something someone's done to make you hold a grudge against them? lots of things..
26.Favorite weather- i like spring and fall.....warm/cool weather
27.what's one look trait that attracts you to a guy? well...eyes probably
28.what's one personality trait that attracts you to a guy? sense of humor and caring
29.do you know what 143 means? uh no lol..
30.who's phone number are you hoping to get? no ones
31.describe melancholy, if you don't know, then skip this question. melancholy is like a state of mind where you are depressed or sad??? i think..i dunno
32.describe mellow- laid back, cool..
33.do you beleive in ghosts? why or why not? umm...i'm not sure i've never actually seen 1 or had an experience w/one but i've heard other peoples..
34.what time did you go to sleep last night? around 12:30
35.which guy/girl do you wish to be with RIGHT now? chrissy :)
36.is it right to flirt if you have a bf/gf? sure if it is innocent..
37.would you rather be married in venice, italy, or honolulu, hawaii? venice
38.would you rather eat sandwiches or pasta for the rest of your life? pasta probably
39.(girls) how would you feel if you got a flower from a guy? special
40.do you want to drop school? no
41.what do you think of the phrase, "no pain, no gain" ? i think it applies to certain situations..meaning that you have to try to get what you want..
42.what do you think of the quote "eyes are the passageways into the soul" ? very true..
43.What do you think of sleep? i love sleep
44.if you had the chance to slow down your growth now and live to 500 years but it's like a 50 year old body by then, would you go for it? what??? lol i guess..i dont get it though
45.at one point in a girl/guy friendship will one them them like each other even if it's only for a little bit. true or false? yes i think so..maybe for at least one second..
46.Are you a procrastinator? hell yes, why do you think i'm filling this out? haha
47.waffles or pancakes? pancakes
48.how's your cereal in your bowl? what??/ plain cereal..no milk
49.what's an annoying trait about you? i'm spoiled and bratty sometimes (well...........alot)...
50.football or rugby? rugby
51. hat or visor? hat
52.ice skating or rollerblading? both!
53.(guys) your gf has long beautiful hair which you love, she comes to school the next day with a short crop cut. what do you HONESTLY think?
(girls) your bf has hair you love. he comes to school the next day with a shiny head. what do you HONESTLY think? ew..and i would tell him ew...
54.pizza or burgers? PIZZA!!!
55.what colour is your jacket? well.....red.......black......blue.....pink i have many jackets !
56.what's something you ALWAYS have on you? my ring
57.what do you think of guys with nailpolishes? weird
58.do you stay in bed thinking or do you fall alseep in 5 seconds? stay thinking for a loooooooong time usually
59.would you rather go to a boarding school, private school, or an all girls or guys school? private school
60.there's a high school that'll be on a cruise ship and you have the opportunity to go. it's your last year at school. do you go for it?
no..
61. who do you want to take with you to the prom? chris
62. your bf/gf gets drunk at a party. in their state of drunkness, they babble about that one time they fooled around with someone else while you were together. they wake up the next morning with a slight memory that did something stupid. what do you do? dump him hah
63.is cyber sex considered cheating? um.....i dont know if it is "cheating" but it's mean and wrong..cause if you are online trying to have cyber sex w/someone.. it is basically saying that your bf/gf doesn't give u what u want and that u have to resort to typing dirty things to a stranger...lol
64.how do you react to change? i dont like change
65.are you happy? yes i am
66.favorite berries- none
67.what's one facial feature you'd like to change about yourself? i want more noticable cheek bones.. or something more like that in my cheeks that makes them stand out more..
68.do you take a shower after a bath? sometimes if it is really soapy
69.what's colour's your towel? i have a red one and a green one
70.what do you think of knuckle cracking? i crack my knuckles
71.what was the last thing you cried over or got teary about? last night...thinking about going to college and thinking about what i am going to do without chris around all the time
72.chalk or crayons? crayons
73.how's you happiness level right now? 0 (low)- 10 (high) 9
74. coffee, tea, or me? ;) coffee
75.wouldn't you just love to hug someone right now? yep
76.who was the last person who complimented you? hahaha some guy at the roxbury market stopped at the door while i was sitting at the table and said "you are very pretty" haha it was embarassing though
77.what's wrong with your school? everyone is fake
78.do you know what an aphrodisiac is? umm...i am pretty sure it is something in the opposite sex or something that you find attractive
79.who do you wish you could kiss? ryan phillippe.....i mean.....chris
80.movies at home on in a theater? home
81.wanna live in a castle? nope
82.isn't gondola a cool word? no
83.what coat do you wear in the winter? red pea coat or black pea coat
84.(girls)what's something about guys you don't get? why they feel that they have to be cool and can't cry or get upset in front of their friends
85.(guys) what's something about girls you don't get?
86.who was better in rush hour/rush hour 2? never seen either
87.it someone said you were hot, what would you think? i would probably be happy..wouldn't most people??
88. you go to your bf/gf's house for the first time and in his/her room, and everywhere is... you. what do you think? i am thrilled :)
89.what happens when you hear the word christmas? i get happy and think of presents
90.does being a psycho sound appealing? no
91.what food brings back good memories? pizza and chinese food
92.do you talk to yourself? i dont think so..but probably sometimes lol
93.sun or moon? moon
94.what's your opinion on love? love is sometimes great and sometimes it sucks more than anything..it is 2 different worlds
95.what's a happy memory of a time you've spent with the opp. sex? definitly the time that chris and i went to cape cod for the weekend...very fun time...
96.would you rather go ballroom dancing or square dancing? ballroom dancing
97.do you think you can afford to lose weight? yes but i dont have the will power to actually do it
98.if you could dye your hair any colour, what would you dye it? probably lighter blonde
99.what's the nicest thing any one has ever told you? one time when i was really upset, when chris and i first started going out...he said to me "don't worry..you have nothing to be sad about..whenever you are said just remember that there is someone that loves you more than anything in the world and is always here for you" and it was really sweet..!!
100. what do you think about sex before marriage? ummmmmmmmmmm.......... lol.....hah ...i dont believe in casual sex but i do think that if you are in love, and have complete trust in the person you are with and know that it is someone that cares for you and are positive that you 2 are responsible enough for it...i think that why wait until you have a priest say that you are married??
101have you had sex before marriage? maybe.. lol
102. what do you think about abortion?? i think it is a woman's choice
103. what is your favorite outfit that you own? umm...probably my tight black leather pants and a white tank top lol..although i barely wear it... besides that..probably my orangey pink tank top and black comfy pants..

that was a really really random survey...lol...dont ask i found it on www.forwardgarden.com

ok i am going out... :)

2003-06-22T12:39:00.000-04:00

You Are an EXPERT in Bed

You know precisely what you’re doing when the sheets are pulled down and the panties go right along with them.

You’re also super confident, and rightly so.

Because any man who may be fortunate enough to find himself between your legs is a happy man, indeed.

You’re the type of woman men brag about in locker rooms: knowledgeable, adorable, and lickable.

You’ve gotten to the point that you don’t even have to try so hard.

It all just comes naturally: the mouth, the hips, everything underneath.

One lovely little package.

Are *You* Good In Bed?

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2003-06-21T18:57:00.000-04:00

Which Sex and the City Vixen Best Matches Your Sex Style?

You'll Get Caught Doing it In the Elevator!

Just hit the stop button and get it on!

You may want to cover up the security cameras first...

But who really cares about them when you're in the heat of the moment?

You are probably a career girl, or at the very least you like classy guys.

Everyone sees you as hard to get, little do they know you're a hot lover.

You keep all your quickies secret - in order to keep your rep intact.

You tend to get off quickly, afterwards floating on air for the rest of the day.

The elevator is ideal for you: hot business guys and tons of privacy.

So hop on in... anyone going down?

Where Will You Get Caught Having Sex?

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2003-06-19T18:34:00.000-04:00

You Are 1/2 Virgin, 1/2 Whore!

50-50, baby! Ah, you are fairly normal. You have sex, though to you it's not more exciting than a new designer outfit.

Secretly, you are a adventurous soul just waiting for someone to take control. Open up a little, and you'll show your guy the best sex ever.

There's nothing to be afraid of - except fainting from multiple orgasms!

You are great at kissing, getting yourself off, and using your hands.

What Do Girls Whisper Behind Your Back? Virgin or Whore Quiz Tells All!

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You Are "Bitch"!

What Swear Word Are You?

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2003-06-19T18:13:00.000-04:00

1 more fucking day in the hell hole ...thank God

2003-06-18T20:02:00.000-04:00

2 more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i am so oooooo unbelievably happy..hehehe

2003-06-15T18:03:00.000-04:00

i haven't written in a few weeks...i just got my wisdom teeth out on friday...ugh...it doesn't hurt much in my mouth..but i've been sooo sick all weekend..the medicine i am on makes me feel lke i am going to die..i just sleep all day and when i get up i feel nauseous and then throw up..adn it isn't that good when you throw up and your mouth hurts cause it has to open so wide that it kills...ughhhh it sucks....i'm starting to feel better today though.and i'm starting to like this medicine hah.. i get to sleep for a few hours with like nothing bothering me ..its like valium or something hehe...well 1 more week of school left!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMIGOD i am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo happy if you only knew how happy i was ..hehehe....i can not wait for this damn year to be over i'm so sick of school it sucks...i have my last trig quiz tomrorwo and i really need to do well on it..chris is coming over later on tonight i think to help me....ooo and chrissy got a car!! yay so now in the summer i dont have to drive his ass around all the time,...it can start being like it is supposed to be and he can drive me!!! im' excited about that....well... i am gonna go eat dinner and then probably go back to bed for like 32523465th nap time today... see you all in our last week of school tomorrow :)~~~

My Current Mood: tired and have no energy,....however , REALLY excited about no more school
Listening To: pure mood- ocean with seagulls lmao

2003-06-01T15:24:00.000-04:00

well i had another really realyl great weekend!! friday i left school early and went to boston u. to visit...then chris came over...then saturday.....well..thats for me to know only ;) hehe.... today i am goin to chris's house later on and then i have to study for math :/ ugh..oh well the weekend seemed like it was really long and im happy...and there is like no school left either..im excited......oh well i'm gonna go get ready !!! love ya :)

My Current Mood: excited and happy
Listening To: 3EB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! cant get away

2003-05-27T17:47:00.000-04:00

wow...i had SOOOO much fun at prom...i had the best weekend... the actual prom was extremely fun, i didn't think it would be cause i hate dancing usually..but i actualyl danced and had a ton of fun..then the after prom was also fun, a little boring a little too long at the beach....but it was still fun...maybe if my boyfriend liked rollercoasters and scary rides it would hae been more fun hehe... well i skipped school today cause i was too lazy and tired haha..oh well....i got all my pictures back ..most of them came out pretty bad lol..i looked horrible at prom now that i look back..oh wel i dont really care cause i had sooo much fun anyway.. here is my website with pics from prom.... http://www.geocities.com/princ3ssnacole/pictures.html

My Current Mood: tired
Listening To: Incubus

2003-05-20T18:57:00.000-04:00

hey guys... i am really bored and want to write here but i dont have anything to say :-/ ....so i guess i'll have to tell you about my leadership weekend that i had so dreaded.....umm it wasn't too fun..lol......but....it also wasn't as bad as i thought it would be,... we did the high ropes course which i found really really scary and i never want to do that again hah..umm i met a couple of people that are cool....and actually got some exercise so thats good.......except that i had a stomach bug most of the trip so that sucked....hmm....well senior projects started this week and i've gone to a few that are really good...im scared cause all of these people are such good speakers and i am a horrible horrible public speaker hah...hmm prom is in 4 days!!!!!!! im so excited... i pick up my dress soon too..even though i'm too fat to wear it....i am still excited and for after prom...hehehe.....and a 3 day weekend.and school is so close to being over..its kinda weird cause i dont feel like it is over yet...im getting really excited for next year and to be a SENIOR!!!!!!! yay......heh.....well i suppose i should go do some trig homework.. ehh..

My Current Mood: happy...good mood
Listening To: Lovin each day- Summer Catch Soundtrack

2003-05-16T17:53:00.000-04:00

well today was career day...it was really fun and interesting actually...i went and spent time with a physician, psychiatrist, psychologist, and nutritionist.. i really liked the doctors i talked to...i am sooooo excited for senior year and college..and surprisingly, pre-med..hehe....who in their right mind is excited to work their ass off in pre med?????? haha ME!! well today is friday but of course it doesn't feel like it cause tomorrow i have to get up early and go spend the weekend with a bunch of kids doing leadership activities...hah....and tonight i think im just gonna watch tv and sleep cause i feel shitty and tired and pmsing....

My Current Mood: pissed
Listening To: 3eb-- Blinded

2003-05-15T21:17:00.000-04:00

well....i think i just figured out that i have really bad pms right now....i was wondering why i was in a reallybad mood all week, and i didn't want to be botherd..and i couldn't stop eating....i tried to diet but obviously it didn't work since i love food...with pms...lol....hmm....tomorrow is friday and career day so we dont have classes yay...but i dont even like care that it is friday cause i have to go to camp sloan this weekend for leadership activities lol..joy...i am realyl dreading it right now cause i need sleep and will have to get up really early there..and i ened to go tanning but i am going to miss out on 2 days of tanning now... ughhh..i am considering leaving early so i can go tanning lol...hmm...and then next weekend is prom..thats ok ig uess...before i was kinda depressed abou it cause i had this lik perfect prom in my head, and everything had been going really not well...but now its starting to get ok and im trying to realize that it will be fun no matter what i guess... except that i have a fat stomach and my dress is 2 pieces.oh well...i tried dieting but its not working too well hehe.... hmm what else?? i had a trig test today and did really well so i'm excited..and we got our interims yesterday and i have an A in all my classes so that made me really happy cause I want to be in top 10 of our class lol...hopefully all those people that are ahead of me are doing really bad so i can get ahead haha..im so mean....hehe....ummm....chris called me a few hours ago saying he had gotten yankees tickets for tonight at 7..and asked me to drivelol....but my mom wouldn't let me and im really pissed at her....cause i want to go to NYU which is right in nyc...and how am i supposd to live in nyc alone and everything if she wont let me go alone now or get any experince driving there etc....ugh its pissing me off....shes always like omg are you crazy??? if i ask to go to new york or boston or whatever alone...actually even hartford...and its pissing me off soooooooooooo much...cause in 1 year i am going to be on my own and i am so clueless to the real world...and she thinks that like i am still a little girl and can't do anything...it makes me mad...and ughhh she is just being really annoying lately maybe cause i have pms it just seems more annoying than it is though....cause whenever i want to stay home from school she like freaks out and gets all mad at me for not going and yells at me and is lik "fine...but you aren't doing anything this weekend then" but today my bro wanted to stay home and he was obviously faking sick and i was in bed and i heard my mom going "can i get you some tea.. " "do you need anything?" and then i got home from school and he was like outside with his friends riding bikes..so i told her..i was like mom, you would never do that for me....and shes all like "you must be stressed about something cause all you want to do is argue" and then she was like getting mad at me...so im not talking to her anymore..she is being a bitch to me..and im sick of it...ughhhhhh and usually i get along really well with my mom..ughh.....and im getting pimples on my nose lmao....and im mad about that too...god i hate pms...it sucks sooooooo much....right before prom too...and i've been going tanning for over a month almost every day and i'm not tan!!!!!!!!!! omg i just realized im complaining about everything.....but i cant help it.....i mean i spend like 80 dollars on tanning and i am barely tan!!!!! and there is 1 week till prom!!!!! ahh...oh well im really tired and need to get some sleep for my stupid weekend....

My Current Mood: tired and pissed off
Listening To: Third Eye Blind- wake for young souls (download it its really good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and all other 3eb songs too!!!!!!!! hehehe i love them :) )

2003-05-03T11:09:00.000-04:00

well its saturday..thank god!! this past week has been so long...i am so glad its finally over... hmm..last night, went tanning, then chris came over and we ate a ton of candy and went crazy..it was fun.....today...same thing probably...i'm going tanning at 2 and then going to chris's house or we're going out or something....and then tomorrow i need to do homework and study for the Ap lit exam thats about it....

My Current Mood: happy
Listening To: adrienne- the calling

2003-04-19T11:18:00.000-04:00

i just got back from NYU last night.. i visited jenna for 2 days ...omg i am IN LOVE with that school...i've already decided that that is w here i am going and i am applying early decision hah..but i dont know if i can get in!! :( it sucks...jenna says that most people that go there have over a 1200 on SATs and about a 93 gpa probably..i'm a little behind.. lol..but omg i want to go there so bad i love it!! its awesome...its like right in new york city and u can do anything u want whenever u want..and its just a really nice school...yay i'm so excited haha..i had so much fun too.. but spring break is almost over :( this sucks! i am going to the mall today with chris and then out to lunch..and then to tracys party for her bday..then tomorrow going over to my grandmas for easter dinner.. sounds fun..lol...well i'm off to new milford to go tanning !

My Current Mood: excited for college hehe
Listening To: Stacie Orrico or something- Stuck

2003-04-11T18:18:00.000-04:00

well..tonight is tyler's wake.. great... we've had a really really hard week at school and everything has been awful...and..the horrigans being my neighbors and all--it's even worse...all night i see cars coming and going to the house and the lights on at 2 in the morning..its extremely depressing..i've been trying to act like everything's fine all day..but every night i'm having horrible nightmares about the accident itself...and now it's raining and the horrigans just drove by to go to their son's wake..it makes me feel soooo awful...and sooo lucky on the other hand..that i still have all of my family and that everything is okay in my own family...all of my sympathy, love, prayers, and thoughts go to the horrigan family.. this just sucks. i was never exactly what you would call friends with tyler..but he's been my neighbor for 7 or 8 years and so he's been around, and he's friends with my brother, and we are family friends...and i used to have a huge crush on tyler in 8th grade and i remember going to their house with theresa and spying on the windows just trying to get a glimpse of tyler..i dont know..it's just soo hard to believe that he is gone... he was SUCH a good kid..i never knew him too well but i know that he was a good student, athlete and friend..i honestly don't think that anyone disliked him... he was just one of those kids that was always nice to everyone no matter what and that cared about everyone.. it's hard on all of us.. and i'm really dreading this wake tonight.. :(

My Current Mood: sad, thinking of tyler :(

2003-04-01T15:56:00.000-05:00

wow i haven't written in a while.. i'm been too lazy and when i actually think about writing here i am never in the mood... hmm lets see.. yesterday was mine and christopher's 3 year anniversary.. yeah..wow lol...i've been in areally bitchy mood the past 2 weeks though i'mnot sure why..everyone has just been pissing me off, and i've been upset and depressed for no reason...i quit track hah... i went for like 3 days and it sucked more than ever..i was like ..why should i waste my time doing something that i hate more than anything ...so thats good i'm happy about that except now my parents are forcing me to get a job and i dont know where to work..well not much has been happening..it's only tuesday yet it feels like it should be friday already.. i did nothing over the weekend so that sucked alot..chris was in massachusetts...so i worked at the art auction and then hung out around the house with myparents... ohhhh and omg chris got his license without telling me!!! he told me on sunday that he got it on saturday..i was like what the hell????/ he had been like lieing to me for a month abou not having the appointment.. cause he wanted it to be a surprise for our anniversary and he wanted to come drive to my house...but he couldn't cause his dad wouldn't let him..lol...oh well i just got the urge to go to sleep lol so i am gonna go take a nap to hopefully clear up my pms and bitchiness heh

My Current Mood: PMS
Listening To: Bowling for Soup - Girl all the Bad Guys Want

2003-03-14T18:07:00.000-05:00

yay its friday..and a loooooong weekend!!...well yesterday we got outta school early cause of snow... yay..i love it...and i rented the ring, and watched it and it was really good....then today..i had a shitty day but i didn't really care cause it's friday and everything in my life is grrrrrreat right now....i've been really happy lately and in a good mood no matter what...chris and i are (for the most part) getting along really well..and everything is just ..good....my grades have been really really good lately..i found out my gpa and was really happy about that ..and he told me that i need a 96 average this semester..and then i have a really good chance of being in the top 10 in the class.and right now i have that ....i am doing really well in trig!! thank god..lol i thought it was goingto be much harder...umm...i got nominated for some youth leadership medical forum thing..in texas this summer where you shadow physicians and get to see really neat thinngs..and i really am interested..because i figure that....it is a good experience to take now to see what i am getting myself into..and to see if i really am interested in medical field...and also...i want to get away from home for a while and see what its like so i am prepared for college heh...oh well we'll see ....hmmm....tonight i'm going to jon lords house with chris cause jons parents aren't home or something..whatever...lol...and then tomorrow or sunday i might be going to visit NYU with my mom...and then monday going to visit UCONn with lindsay cause she might want to go there with mike...lol....

My Current Mood: happppy
Listening To: nothing

2003-02-26T19:14:00.000-05:00

well my bday was sunday...i'm sure most of you already knew that lol...i just got a lot of money from relatives.. and then chris got me a really pretty ring (i'm sure most ofyou already know about that already too) and a shirt...and then tracy got me a gift certificate to friendlys..and i'm goin with her tomorrow after school to eat.. yaya... lol...lindsay got me some underwear and a tank top... so yeah i had a happy bday i guess..i didn't do anything special...i slept over rachaels party the night before well...actually there was no sleeping involved hah..we never went to slepe..so i was kinda tired and cranky on my bday...oh wel..i had a really good week so far..i've done really well in school and just been good...

My Current Mood: happy and tired
Listening To: Snoop- Next episode

2003-02-22T15:25:00.000-05:00

well it's saturday anddddd...tomorrow is my birthday!!! hehe.... well last night i had nothing to do so i did math homework for hours...and then my dad came home with a HUGE tv...he went to the mall and bought one of those like thousands of dollar tvs that is like 10 feet tall...lmao...so i watched that today..but mom doesn't like it and thinks it is too big for the living room so i think he is returning it and getting a little smaller one.. oh well...so tonight i'm going out with chris for a while and then after i'm going over to rachael's party.. so that should be fun hopefully..and then tomorrow when i come back home my grandparents are comin over to give me my presents and eat cake :) my mom bought an ice cream cake yummy..so now i'm just sitting around waiting to do something later on...hmm i'm really bored i just went and visited tracie c at work and got a sandwich...and my parents just left for a basketball game w/my bro..sooooooooooooooo i'm home alone and bored hehe...i just feel like typing even though i have nothing good to say... oooooooo i'm soo excited to see what i am getttting for my bday..especially from my lovely boyfriend heheh.. (lol). i will be sure to tell you alll tomorrow..if anyone cares hah.... ohh well..i'm going back to watching the huge ass tv... byye

My Current Mood: bored, anxious
Listening To: Smilez and Southstar- Tell me

2003-02-15T13:02:00.000-05:00

aww i had the best valentines day ever..and usually i hate valentines day.. it was sooooooo cute.. ok..so chris had me meet him at work and then i sat and waited and when it was time for him to go ...he gave me an envelope and i opened it and it said "this valentines day i have prepared a scavenger hunt for you. it iwll take us through memorable places/events in our relationship." and then there were a bunch of clues at all these places in his house and on his road of where things happened or whatever with us..and then at the end the last clue was to his room..and then my present was there. and it was roses, a dvd, a puppy, and he wrote me a really cute poem.. (i had wanted him to write one for soooooooo long cause he never has) and it wall all sooooo cute..i'm so happy :)!!!

2003-01-27T17:11:00.000-05:00

well today sucked!!!!!!!! i had such an awful day...first i did horrible on ALL of my exams..even though i studied and tried really hrad...then i finally got my schedule exactly the way i wanted it and then mr grgach and mrs boyhen tell me that i can't take trig cause my average is obnly a B- not a B+ .....what a way to make you feel bad about yourself..hah so now it sucks..i cried when i got home..and now mr grgach hates me i think cause i want to take trig and not alg 3...waaaa i hate this!!!!!

2003-01-25T23:08:00.000-05:00

just got back from collins house...chris and i went there with collin, alex, ian, and a friend of alex's....we just watched a movie adn sat around..it was ok ..well i just got home and its 11..and im really really tired..i'm excited cause i put blankets over my windows so i can sleep late tomorrow and it will be dark :) hmm well i guess i'm gonna go to bed ...

My Current Mood: tired
Listening To: Ludacris

2003-01-24T15:34:00.000-05:00

well exams over...thank god :)..i think i did well on most of them...i guess ;/ i'm not really sure how i did actually...and my schedule for next semester is completely changed..now i have public speaking/gym, honors trig, honors humanities andhonors spanish 6...sooo that sounds better hehe...:) i'm excited actually..and its fridaaaaaaaaay !!!!!!!!! wahoo..except i'm not doing anything tonight i don't think oh wel... oooh and after school i dropped chris off at work cause jon had left him or something (yes i know very far out of my way) hah...and then i went to nine main...its a bakery/deli and i got this really yummy cookie called chocolate mudpie...it would have been better without the nuts..but it was chocolate with pieces of choc fudge in it and choc chips yummyyy..heh..and i got a half fudge brownie too :) hah i'm such a pig..this is what i do on friday nights...(actualyl every night nevermind)..... hmm maybe i will rent movies and eat alone tonight..haht aht would eb funnnn......ok well i'm gonna go find something to do.. byee :)

My Current Mood: excited hyper...happy
Listening To: DMB- #41

2003-01-19T23:04:00.000-05:00

welli just got back from christopher's house..we studied for exams..and i did chem extra credit..haha yep more of it...now i dont' really feel well so i think i'm heading to bed...tomororw is the last day of the weekend :( went by too fast...oh well now it's only a 4 day school week and then we start new classes :)!! thats good....i guess anyway...i'm taking...hmmm lets see... public speaking, gym, algebra 3, american studies 3, and spanish 6 ...sooo it will be pretty good since i'm good at spanish, and since i was in "honors" (hahah) algebra 2..i'll know most of the stuff that is in algebra 3 since it is made for people that were in regular alg 2 and didn't get as far or something...oh well..thank god finally i'll do well in a math class...lol..oh well i'm going to bed..hope everyone had a good weekend...

My Current Mood: tired
Listening To: NIN- closer

2003-01-18T00:06:00.000-05:00

it's friday!!!! just got back from friendlys with ...well...nicole,laura,lindsay d,becca, kara, rach etc..lol...then we all went to tracys for a little while after eating yummy food :) and then i was supposed to sleep over but i felt like going home so here i am ;) hmm i spent like 2 hours doing chem. extra credit when i got home..on a friday afternoon!! lol strange...its so pathetic,..everyone is like mad at me hahah...i have a like 96 average in chemistry but i'm such a perfectionist that i have to do extra credit so i can get an A+..lol..oh wel...i am soo happy that it is friday..this week went by really slow..and its also a 3 day weekend!! wahoo...i dont think i'm doing anything interesting though..chris unfortunately has to work and his parents are like forcing him to study every second of the weekend..ughhhhhhhhhhh... :( ruins my happiness..oh wel...i'm going to do more extra credit i think and then goin to bed... byyee :)!!!!!!!!

My Current Mood: happy; hyper after spending too much time with tracy etc...hah
Listening To: Sheryl Crow- Strong Enough

2003-01-13T18:57:00.000-05:00

well i haven't written in a while...my internet wasbroken for a while so i couldn't come on..hmm nothing new really...went to the semiformal this past weekend..that was pretty fun i guess... i have afew pictures here if you wanna see" http://www.geocities.com/pisces0princ3ss/home.html just a few...

My Current Mood: bad headache
Listening To: nothing lol

2003-01-01T20:28:00.000-05:00

well..happy new years day everyone :) i hope everyone had a good day, and night..welll.....i didn't get to sleep over chris's house :( he got in a fight with his mother apparently about it and she got pissed and now there are new rules too....no blanket on the couch, and no lying down on the couch.. and no "looking like we are having sex" according to his mom...ha....and the funny thing being that we fooled around more than ever new years eve...oh well.....parents just don't quite udnerstand that the more they tell u not to do something, the more kids want to do it just because....well....its raining and cold tonight and school tomorrow...that really realyl sucks....the vacation went by tooo fast...oh wel i gues it wont be that bad..its just 2 days and then 2 more days off again....oh well happy new years everyone!!!!!!

My Current Mood: headachey
Listening To: Trapt- Headstrong

2002-12-30T21:11:00.000-05:00

2 more days left of vacation :( it's soo depressing..i really don't want to go back to school..yet i'm looking forward to tomororw (new years eve) just cause chris doesn't have to work so i'm spending the whole day w/him and i think i'm sleeping over but i'm not sure ..lol hopefully!!.. ohh well....the other night chris and i went to the mall..and he bought condoms and then we went in his room and he was showing me where he was putting them....and then the next day he was like "omg, my dad found them when he was looking for something he wanted to borrow from me" and so his dad knows now..and i feel dumb lol i'm scared of them now...and then today...i went to visit chris at work and his parents just happened to be there eating lunch..lol..it was scary....and chris said that yesterday he was i the car with his dad and his dad wa slike "just tell me one thing........where??" lmao....ohh its soooo embarassing and it sucks alot now cause i was supposed to sleep over new years eve and now i'm probably not going to be able to just cause his dad knows now...that would suck alot!!!!!! oh well....i'm really excited for tomrorow..i love new years eve for some reason..i'm not sure why..but it should be fun.. ;) hehe... hmm....well...i'm really really really bored right now..i just watched tv and ate pizza for like 5 hours lol...i didn't do anything today at all...and i'm dreading school for some reason alot...i think i'm gonna end up crying when i have to go back ...i love not having school even if i'm not doing anything at all...oh well..i could go on and on ig uess but i'm too lazy to type and i feel sick...so i think i'm gonna go back to lying in bed watching movies...happy angela??? lmao....you should write in yours !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Current Mood: lazy bored tired and excited
Listening To: single for the rest of my life....i'm not sure who sings it

2002-12-29T14:25:00.000-05:00

i miss christo :(

My Current Mood: lonely
Listening To: nothing, watching girl interrupted

2002-12-27T13:52:00.000-05:00

well yesterday i went to massachusetts with chris to visit his family....that was interesting lol...all i can say is that his family is a lot different than mine and they probably will never get along..heh....oh well i actually had fun anyway despite the fact that we were made fun of the whole time..and it sucks cause i had to wake up at 7 to go...and then i didn't get back until 3 am last night...ohh well...i really really want to go to the mall tonight to buy some more clothes and stuff with the money and gift cards i got.

My Current Mood: exhausted
Listening To: Taproot- Poem

2002-12-25T21:16:00.000-05:00

merry christmas everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hope everyone had a great christmas :)... well lets see,what did i get for christmas?? i got a tv for my room, a hot pink discman and some cds, lots of clothes, lots of hair/makeup/shampoo/smelly stuff lol....and lots of money and gift certificates etc..i had a great day :) ooooooohhh and guess what?????? today, christmas, was 1000 days that i've been w/chris..isnt' that cute??!!! hehe...we calculated it last week...hehe just thought id share that with you..
hahahahha..i just have to put this in here for any of you that are reading this and actually know me/even if u dont lmao....these are 3 conversations that chris and i had in about 10 mins that i thought were so funny that they were worth putting on here...heh.....

chris: ......i haven't whacked off in like 8 months..
nacole: *dies laughing* why not??
chris: cause i have you
nacole: no seriously why not??
chris: really....i'm serious
(a little while later)
nacole: i'm mad at you...
chris: *yells at me* cause i haven't whacked off in 8 months??????
chris: oh god don't post that on the internet too..

chris: ya know, i think other couples want to be like us..
nacole: i doubt it
chris: yeah..., i love us
nacole: me too
chris: us is like a ship
nacole: what???? us is like shit???
chris: nooooo, a ship

"if i had a gun for every day i've spent with you,.....i'd have 1,000 guns.."

My Current Mood: hyper but tired..if htat makes any sense
Listening To: Matchbox 20- Disease

2002-12-24T15:55:00.000-05:00

its christmas eve and it doesn't feel like christmas is already tomorrow....and apparently its supposed to snow too...i really hope it does because i dont feel like its christmas, and a cold, snowy day would make it seem like christmas definitely. well...i'm having a nice dinner w/my family later on tonight, but besides that i haven't done anything today i'm still in my pajamas and just waiting for food :) and then tomorrow i'm going over to my grammas house in bridgewater with the rest of my family to open presents and eat dinner...that should be fun..well...happy holidays everyone!!!!!!

My Current Mood: happy/lazy
Listening To: Nsync- happy holidays

2002-12-23T14:47:00.000-05:00

well last night chris cooked me dinner and even wore this af sweater that i wanted him to buy...yes chris murray wore a sweater! lol...i'm not supposed to tell anyone though but oh wellhehe...it was nice..and we exchanged presents etc...it was fun....now i'm exhausted and just sitting around..i went to arbys with lindsay earlier for lunch and i think chris and i are going out to the movies tonight or to the bball game or something later on.. i'm so excited for christmas :)~ oh well i hope everyone is having a good holiday/vacation

My Current Mood: lazy and happy
Listening To: TLC- watch the tables turn???

2002-12-20T18:20:00.000-05:00

yay today was the last day of school for 2 weeks :) i've been waiting for this day for ever...not like i do anything on vacations anyway..i just hate school thats all..today was a fun day..ate lots and lots of yummy food and got lots of presents...now i'm home alone just sitting around i think i'm going out to dinner with chris in a little while though anyway...yep...he just called hehe...well i'm trying to figure out what to do tonight so byee :)

My Current Mood: no schoooool yayyyyyy
Listening To: Dispatch- Elias

2002-12-14T10:41:00.000-05:00

well didn't end up going to holiday in the depot...so on my way to chris's house last night driving past holiday int eh depot i got yelled at by a cop...i was supposed to stop for the people to walk by but i didn't cause i thought he was saying to go...then i felt really really dumb haha..but my brother was at his friends and when he got home he said that his friends dad got yelled at also for not stopping so then i didn't feel as stupid...lol...well chris and i got in a fight again...or it was just me once again initiating the fight...this is what happened; in school he asked me if id go to petco with him and jon and jade and i was like no, i dont want to so u just go and then i'll see u after...so we got in a fight about that somehow to....so then i called at like 7 and his mom was like.."he just went to petco, he says for u to come over at 8:15" so i was like ok,, so i got there then, and he wasn't there....he didn't get back till about 9:00..so i was pissed because u dont ask someone to come over and then not show up for almost another hour...and when i first got there his mother was like.. well he just called and said that the lines are long at petco thats why hes late..and i was like yeahj, i'm sure..cause when he got home he had mcdonalds...so apparently he had time to stop there as well, while he knew that i was waiting for him....ugh it pissed me off so much...so i didnt' say a word the whole night...maybe thatsa little too harsh though..but hey i was pissed, and have pms...lol..i just sat there for like 2 hours while he said i'm sorry over and over and over again..then i waslike ...well i have to go..bye and left...and i haven't talked to him since...gosh...sometimes i hate myself for it though..i wish i could just forgive and forget...i'm so damn stubborn and i hate it!!!!!!!

My Current Mood: hungry (waiting for my cinnamon cake to finish baking) heh
Listening To: Avril Lavigne- I'm With You

2002-12-13T17:12:00.000-05:00

well today sucked...thank god its friday though..i have major pms..lol just thought you'd all like to know that..after a day of bitching at everyone and being in a pissy mood its finally over...i kinda just want to sit home alone tonight, but of course i'm not cause i can't...lol...my parents are going out...............soooooo..yeah....i guess i should go out as well....and plus holiday in the depot is tonight...sounds fun huh??? its boring as hell but oh well i'll probably end up there...i have to go to petco wiht a bunch of losers first though. hehe just kidding...fun once again..lol....i'm so mean..oh well i have an excuse i guess....

My Current Mood: pmssey
Listening To: Taproot- Poem

2002-12-07T15:30:00.000-05:00

i went to the mall last night with tracy...boy was that fun lol...we were eating and this guy sat down next to us and he had no hand....lmao lmao lmao..omigod...something like that could only happen to tracy and I....it was soooooo funny..that was the highlight of our night haha...well we went to build a bear and she got mela a bear, and i got christopher one....so that was fun too....tonight....probably going out w/chris or just watching movies...tomorrow just doing homework probably..

My Current Mood: happy
Listening To: Boston-More than a feeling

2002-11-30T23:23:00.000-05:00

well i had a pretty good thanksgiving...my aunt came that i haven't seen in forever..she's cool...shes 27 but yet she acts as if she is my age lol..she works for bacardi and is really, really rich and has tons of cool clothes, makeup, perfume etc..lol..so i had fun...umm...they left this morning...tonight i just hung out w/chris..got ina fight once again...hmm..should i even bother explaining to you all what it was about this time?? lol..i don't think i'm going to...i probably shouldn't tell everyone something like that...well anyway..i am going to bed

My Current Mood: pissed
Listening To: sean paul- gimme the light

2002-11-27T22:20:00.000-05:00

well lets see..tomorrows thanksgiving!!!!!1 yay...a whole day of non stop constant eating..lol..its my favorite holiday...i'm so excited heh...well my aunt and grandpa came up tonight from washington DC...i haven't seen this aunt in over 9 years probably so its kinda weird..and since shes sharing a room with me this week it's interesting lol...well i just got back from chris's house...and i'm really really tired and starting to get sick ...soo...i'm just gonna go to bed and wake up to lots and lots of food :) have a great thanksgiving everyone!!!!!

My Current Mood: sick but hyper
Listening To: Sheryl Crow- Strong Enough

2002-11-23T22:38:00.000-05:00

so i spent friday night really sick once again...it sucks it alwayshappens on fridays..i was about to die i went home early from school and just slept all day andnight...so my friday sucked...anyway well i went to the mall today w/my grandma to pick out christmas presents for myselfl...it was fun..i got a lot of new clothes too bad i can't have them till christmas..then chris came and picked me up and we went to his house and watched some really dumb movie..ooooohh yeah i got a semiformal dress!!!! i love it sooooo much lol...its so pretty..even though most people probably wouldn't think so i just love it for some reason..it looks kinda like something from the fiftys lol..i dunno..i love it though..i'm excited..heh.. well now i'm just really tired and i'm gonna go eat the rest of my subway sandwich left over from lunch and wait for a phone call...

My Current Mood: tired
Listening To: Sheryl Crow/Dixie Chicks live--Strong Enough

2002-11-22T22:20:00.000-05:00

nothings true and nothings right..so let me be alone tonight,...cause you can't change the way i am...are you strong enough to be my man...i make the rules up as i go..just try to love me if you can...
and when i show you that i just don't care...when i'm throwing punches in the air...when i'm broken down and i cannot stand..would you be man enough to be my man...

2002-11-19T19:53:00.000-05:00

uggggghhhhhhh...lol..that explains my day once again... i hate fighting with chris..more than anything..it makes my whole day suck...well i think we worked things out.. and he cried during lunch (aww) it was so cute...it was barely anything but still i saw a tear lol...its the first time i've ever seen him cry in our over 2.5 years together...i dunno...i made him feel really shitty and i feel horrible...i'm just a moody person..i dont feel like explaining anything..lol..i've been doing homework for soooooo freakin long it sucks..oh well still have an essay to write..sooo.....byee

My Current Mood: :)
Listening To: TLC- Girls Talk

2002-11-18T16:51:00.000-05:00

well..i had a shitty day today..and am looking forward to a shitty week...so last night i guess i was being a bitch (like usual) and ignoring chris or something when i was at his house yesterday..so he says "you don't love me anymore" and i couldn't say anything..it was really bad...i dont know..lately i've just been feeling like he is more a best friend than a boyfriend..so apparently i've been being weird lately..i dont know..he got really upset cause i couldn't tell him i loved him...even though inside i know i do...so i dont know where that leaves us at the moment...oh well i'll talk to him later anyway... and as for the rest of my day...well i already said.....

My Current Mood: pissed off
Listening To: nelly- let me in now

2002-11-15T16:20:00.000-05:00

it's friday!..well chris informs me during last period of the day that he can only come over for like an hour tonight..i was like great, thanks alot..that pisses me off also cause now i am just sitting around all night and waiting to see him for 1 hour..when i could be going somewhere else...oh well..and then tomorrow i think i am going to do somthing with NICole and tracy..go to friendly's or something :) that should be fun i guess...hmm..well i have to go pick up my brother from basketball tryouts in a few mins..(thank god) it gives me something to do..and my mom is sick, and my dad is going somewhere soooooooooo.....i guess i'll just be sitting around alone all night..

My Current Mood: tired
Listening To: Macy Gray- Still (good song!!!!)

2002-11-14T17:13:00.000-05:00

well i got a B in alg. 2 !!!! yayaya...lol....this is very unlike me to be rejoicing over a B..usually i'm the 1 that like has a heartattack if I get a B+ in a class....oh well i dont care...math sucks ...let me rephrase that...boyhen sucks...she is an awful teacher and i learn nothing so i think a B is a greaaaaaat grade!...lol..and everything else i did good in..so thats good..

My Current Mood: completely out of it...seeing as though I just typed "MY current Weekend" and then "Britney Spears"hahah
Listening To: Britney Spears- overprotected

2002-11-11T20:31:00.000-05:00

well..i had a good weekend..saturday night i went to the mall with chris, jon and jade..i actually surprisingly had a really good time it was alot of fun...and it was interesting because i heard that the next day jon got yelled at by jade cause jade thinks chris and I hve a better relationship then her and jon do...i thought it was kinda funny just because just last week i was depressed cause i thought they had a really good relationship and i was jealous of theirs...it was strange :) ...um today i just hung out with chris alot, went shopping... i found the cutest dress ever for the semi formal...so if we decide to go i'll have to get it :).. hmm....ugh so today i went to chris's house at around 10 this morning and we went shopping, went for a walk at some park, looked for a job for me, (but Gap doesn't hire ppl under 18 :( damnit) and went to the movies...but somehow once again every time we spend lik more than 5 hours together we end up getting mad at eachother..its weird lol.. (except cape cod though)... so like...this is what happened:: we got back to his house from the movies at around 3 and his parents weren't home and they told us we had to stay out until they got home cause we're not allowed in a house alone and all that shit lmao...so we sat outside for over an hour just waiting..and so he started to get pissed cause it was starting to get dark and rainy and he's lik come on lets just go inside? and i'm like noo..and this argument went on for another 20 minutes probably...and all he wanted was me to fuck him or something of that sort (thats the only reason he wanted to go inside in the first place)...so finally we just went inside and his parents came home like 10 mins later and they kept talking to us..and i had to leave in 30 mins anyway to be home...so when they left hes like 'come on i've been waiting all day' and im like noo.... and then he got pissed at me even though it wasn't my fucking fault..and he was all pissed off and like "now my whole week is ruined and my day" it was such an asshole thing to say cause we got along really well today and had a realyl good time (at least I did) and then he had to go and say that..and i know he didn't mean it like that it just pissed me off cause sex isn't everything in the world..omigod he pisses me off so much when he is like that..cause deep down i know that it isn't all he cares about, and it's not seriously going to ruin his week or anything..it just makes me mad that he would say something like that to me in the first place.. whatever... besides this i had a great weekend and i really don't wanna go to school tomorrow..

My Current Mood: tired and stomach ache
Listening To: Trust Company- Downfall

2002-11-09T10:44:00.000-05:00

well...so far my plans for the weekend are nothing like i thought they were..but i'm still having fun :).. well yesterday chris came over after school and we went to subway(me) and burger king (for him) and then we went to kmart to buy deodorant lmao (don't ask)..hah....then we just came to my house and watched a movie..now i think i'm doing absolutely nothign today the whole day and then going to the movies and mall later tonight with chris, jon and jade..(joy) lol...oh well everyone have a good weekend..

2002-11-05T18:53:00.000-05:00

hey hey...this week is flying by for me thank god!! i'm soo excited for the weekend and i'm not even sure if i am doing anything...well right now i'm planning on hanging out w/chris on friday and saturday..and then sunday i want to hopefully go see greg in bristol and hang out with him for the day..then monday and tuesday i think i'm going with tracie c. and ben allen (possibly?) to see Jenna at NYU.. yayaya and we'll probably go do soemthing fun there...that should be a lot of fun... i dont know if any of this is final though cause greg may not be able to do anything, and tracie may be going next weekend instead...i have no clue..still i'm excited cause it's a 3 day weekend..wow for some reason i'm in a really really hyper/excited/happy happy mood lol..im not quite sure why.. oooo well actually now that i just typed all of that i just talked to tracie and she said she is probably not going to nyu this weekend..wtf oh ewll...lol i'm still happy.. its crazy...

My Current Mood: craaaaaazy whore
Listening To: Weezer- Island in the Sun

2002-11-03T21:41:00.000-05:00

well i went to boston today and looked at tufts and boston university. it was interesting..i really liked them both in their own ways...tufts was a very pretty, serious sort of atmosphere while b.u. was right in the city and very busy etc...i still want to look at nyu, cornell and colombia though..hmm..i had a fun day though anyway..i got a sweatshirt hehe i've wanted a college sweatshirt for a while so i feel special lmao..i'm so retarded...well i had a pretty good weekend despite the fact that i wasn't allowed to see or talk to chris the whole weekend cause his mom hates me or something and she apparently said that he could call or see anyone except me...whatever..

My Current Mood: happy :)
Listening To: dispatch- flying horses

2002-11-01T18:54:00.000-05:00

hmm...halloween yesterday..i did'nt do anything lol..i'm such a loser i sat home and did homework all night..christopher came over for about an hour but thats it..i should have done something...ohhh well...i was a punk in school with tracy so that was fun...umm....it was weird cause today didn't seem like a friday but it is...thank god i dont have to get up early i am exhausted..i slept over tracys 2 nights ago and we got no sleep and just laughed all night then had to get up for school the next morning...hmm...well i'm going to boston on sunday i think to visit tufts and boston college...thats cool ..but other than that i have no real big plans for the weekend,..just going to do some extra credit so i can possibly make high honors and catch up on sleep..now i'm just sitting around i just got back from lindsays house and i'm gonna see if chris wants to come over in a minute..

My Current Mood: tired and full from dinner
Listening To: dispatch- the general

2002-10-29T16:04:00.000-05:00

well...i can't wait for the week to be over.i'm so sick of school..my parents have been being assholes the past few days and i can't stand it. halloween should be fun anyway.. i am being a princess and chris is beign a prince lol (this shouldbe interesting) i need something to wear though lol...hmm..oh well i have tons of shit to do..

My Current Mood: hyper
Listening To: eminem- lose yourself

2002-10-26T17:59:00.000-04:00

zz i'm soo tired and i got so much sleep last night..its weird.. hmm..well i just got back from blockbuster my mom let me drive the new car lol..it was scary..now i'm about to go out with chris..when he gets outta work we're goin to eleni's for dinner then watchin movies..ugh i got in a huge fight with my mom earlier and she made me cry..she is just being a bitch about the whole college/school stuff...i told her that even though i'm in honors alg. 2 (so i don't have to take alg 3) that i still want to anyway..so i was like...i should just take trig over the summer at a college or something and she's all like "what i'm not paying for you to drive there every day and for the class" i mean...what kid my age would actually CHOSE to take a class over the summer, a math class especially...and she won't even let me...it pisses me off so much cause it's like she doesn't even care that I WANT a good education..and then..i mean i really want to go to Tufts but i was also thinking FSU because i want to be far away and chris might want to go there..and so i'm like "well can we visit it sometime over the summer" and shes like "no you're not going to florida..we're not going to florida that's too much money to spend to look at a college that you might not even like" im like what the fuck mom...everyone else's parents care and actually want to visit colleges and my parents are being complete jerks about the whole thing..and acting like they don't give a shit where i go to college or what i do with myself..ughhhhh oh well ...i need a hug lol...time to go see pookie :) have a good night everyone

2002-10-26T11:57:00.000-04:00

well i went to bad as soon as i got home yesterday (3 pm) and slept until 8 am this morning..it sucks i was soooo freaking sick and it sucks even more cause it was friday night that i missed :( oh well at least i feel better i probably wouldn't if i didn't go to sleep when i got home.now i'm sitting home bored...my mom made me clean my room and now i'm just waiting to see what i'm gonna do tonight..

My Current Mood: bored
Listening To: d.j. sammy- heaven

2002-10-24T17:42:00.000-04:00

oh my god..i feel like shit.. i have horrible horrible cramps (just thought i'd let you all know)..holy shit its awful...i can barely move lol...now i know why i was in a pissy mood all day and just started crying randomly throughout the day..and bitched at everyone...oops. fucking guys...they don't know what its like to be a girl :).. geez...well besides the fact that i'm about to die cause i'm so sick..everything else sucks too...i had a shitty day...i was in a bad mood...i'm not getting the grades that i want in school and can't no matter how hard i try...my boyfriend is being mean to me...everyone has stuff to do this weekend and is busy..so i am left with basically nothing to do for the weekend..my mom is out getting her new car right now w/the rest of my family and will proceed to not let me drive the old one..,,,
great......

My Current Mood: very very sick, pissed off
Listening To: dashboard confessionals- the sharp hint of new tears

2002-10-20T21:44:00.000-04:00

just finished my ap lit paper....and ohh shit is it bad..lol...i'm too lazy to find examples in the book so i just like bullshitted it completely..and ugh ihave a math test tomrorow..great...i hate school!!

My Current Mood: tired once again
Listening To: Sugarcult- the way?

2002-10-19T14:04:00.000-04:00

omigod i'm so tired. i had to get up at like 6:30 to go to psats....then 4 hours later of testing, i went to subway with tracy, tracie, laura, nicole, and emmanuella..it was yummy lol..hmm so tongiht i am going to the movies with christopher i think.. i can't decide if i want to see sweet home alabama, the ring, abandon, or white oleander... i guess i 'll have to decide soon..so now i'm just waiting for chris to get home from work in like 4 hours...hmm i should probably go to bed until then so i'm not so tired later.. oh well.. byebye

My Current Mood: tired
Listening To: Nelly- Let me in

2002-10-17T20:20:00.000-04:00

ugh i just finished my homework that i've been working on for what seems like days.. we had 2 take home quizzes in math and ahh i just don't get it..i really don't belong in an honors math class lol..i'm so horrible at math..and my parents are no help, so i have to rely on my smart friends, but they have their own work to do..so can't help me :( school sucks.. and i really want to read white oleander but i have to read stupid shakespeare instead for lit...it sucks..if i read the 2 at the same time i'll probably just end up getting confused anyway.. UGHHH...i'm soo freakin tired, thank god tomorrow is friday.. i have a dentist appointment tomorrow, then probably just hanging out with chris..then saturday...psats in the morning, parents are at wedding all day (hmmmm...... ) ;)~ hehe.. and then i want to go to the movies at night....umm sunday...hanging out w/tracy prolly.. all i care about is sleep though heh..

My Current Mood: tired
Listening To: Camron- Hey Ma

2002-10-15T20:10:00.000-04:00

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2002-10-14T21:30:00.000-04:00

well..i know you're all just dieing to know how my little trip to cape cod went ..heh...it was really, really fun, i had a great time..i'm so glad that jon and chris lord didn't come, cause then it wouldn't have been as fun as it was. i spent just about every second with chris, except for at night of course lol...but we didn't go to bed late, adn we woke up early anyway..it was just really fun..we played mini golf, went to a flea market, ate lots of candy, went on lots of nature walks/trails, walked on the beach etc...and every morning when i woke up my lovely boyfriend was lying next to me rubbing my back lol...oook but i do have to tell everyone a very very very scary thing that happened during my nice weekend.. ookk...so it was saturday night at around 10 and christopher and i decided to go on a long "walk" on the beach cause its the only place we could be alone without the parents...heheh..soo..we walked really far down the beach and it was really cold..and then we stopped by this long set of stairs that went frm the beach up to someones house (very long staircase) and we were just.....well......uhh.....you know........under these stairs...(and i'm sure he would just love the fact that i'm telling all of you out there this hehehe so don't tell him i wrote this if you know him!!!!)....so all of a sudden he jumps up, and i was like "what?" and he's like "is that a person over there?" so we're looking...and we see this person walking down the beach...but let me say that we were way up near the top of the beach and she was down by the water...so she's walking towards us, and then she starts coming up the beach (ahhhhh i'm getting scared thinking about this lol) so...i'm like "shit, is that your mom" and hes like i dont know!! so she comes up and we find out that she is like crying hysterically ...like really really crying and mumbling things like "omigod" "help me" and stuff like that....so we both just sit there..and she stops like 10 feet away from us maybe...so w'ere like soo freaking scared and didn't know if we should say something to her or just sit there..or run.....and we can almost swear that she had a gun in her hand...and we both seriously, like totally thought she was going to kill us or herself right there...soo she stayed there for like 3 or 4 minutes probably just crying...and we wre just like "shit shit shit what do we do??" and let me add that chris is sitting there almost completely naked lmao... once again...dont tell him i said this !! :) hehe....so....all of a sudden, we look in the other direction and we see a huge flashlight coming down this other set of stairs down the beach..and then we turn around adn the girl was gone... omg it was sooooooo fucking scary...i'm like shaking thinkling about it...so we ran up the stairs we were at..and then the guy with the flashlight was gone also....so we ran back down the stairs and just ran down the beach back to our house...omg...then we're both just like lying in bed like " i love you i love you i love you.." and we're like shaking..omigod it was sooo scary ..i know it doesn't sound that scary but it seriously was!!!!..anyway...all in all it was really really fun, and i had a great time.. :) dont wanna go back to school tomrorow...it sucks soo much i'm so tired i should probably be in bed..so i hope everyone had a good weekend..byee!

My Current Mood: happy happy
Listening To: Bjork- state of emergency.. (really good song)

2002-10-12T11:46:00.000-04:00

just got back from SAT IIs...fun lol...8:15 in the freaking morning!!!! ugh...lmao so..i get there, and i had been signed up for the spanish 1, and then right before i got there i decided i wanna take the writing one...haha...so i took that, it was kinda easy..but whenever i think i did well on something, i always end up doing horrible, and vice versa...so i have no clue..there were alot of people there from shepaug..hmm now i'm exhausted..went to the talent show last night with chris jon jade and jades family...it was ok,..ours was beter though :)..i gave chris his presents, and he liked them so thats good...now i'm just sittin around waiting for them to come pick me up and we're goin to cape cod when he gets home from SATs..time to sleep in the car for like 4 hours! have a great 3 day weekend everyone!!! :) byebye

My Current Mood: exhausted but excited
Listening To: Garbage- Cherry Lips

2002-10-10T19:35:00.000-04:00

well 1 more day of this fucking week.. thank god... ugh..i hate myself, i'm such a jealous bitch and i hate it soo much..i try so hard not to be jealous but i can't not be...it's sooo hard..and i'm not even sure why..oh well... whatever. well tomorrow is talent show i heard that it's supposed to be really bad..but whatever we thought our talent show was gonna suck also, and everyone actually thought it was really well written. so i don't know...hmm i should really be finishing my homework and studying for the SATs on saturday,...and i really should be going to bed early since i probably won't get a lot of sleep this weekend. ..i'm such a procrastinator.. oh well..i went to get my pictures developed today and made an enlargement of the 1 of chris and i, then turned it to black and white so i can give it to him for his bday.. i talked to greg last night and his girlfriend broke up with him...soo i'm probably gonna do something with him next week or weekend... oh well.. i hafta go read basically an entire book for AP lit..so byebye

My Current Mood: stomach ache from those pancakes mom made
Listening To: 3LW- Feels Good

2002-10-09T14:16:00.000-04:00

wahoo..today was a half day at school...so i didn't feel like going on the bus after school so i waited for luke to get outta detention and then he drove me home heh...hes cool..hmm...well this week is going by fast thank god..i'm so excited for the weekend. and we've got talent show this friday..hmm...anyway...i'm going to subway and friendlys with tracy after her cross country practice to get sandwiches and then ice cream sundaes yummmmmmmy!!! heh..its weird being home early..hmm...lets see...well chris and i got in a fight last night and i have to say, that in our 2.5 years together, it was probably the first time HE has ever been mad at ME..usually its the complete opposite lol...he's like never ever ever been mad at me in his life..strange...anyway..yeah..soo yesterday we had e period..and i hadn't finished my math quiz..so i went in to finish but i didn't know the last like 15 problems lmao..so i found chris and gave him the problems and then had him do them...soo.....i go out to the library again to see if he had finished, and he was like what the hell? i dont get this..i dont know how to do this" so i was like ok..so i just guessed, and handed in my test...so 2 seconds later, literally, i see him and he had them all done...and i was like" i just handed in my test sorry" and he got so freakin pissed...i feel really really bad about it too..he spent the whole 40 minutes doing MY math..and i didn't even use it...so he think i'm just like taking advantage of him or something it's sad.. i feel horrible though... and yes i know i was cheating lol..i'm sory.. i have to do good in math,.its the only class that i really just truly don't understand no matter how hard i try..i can't do well.....sooooo then ig et to class today and mrs boyhen was like...what??? that wasn't a test!!! that was your homework! and it turns out that the substitute that we had yesterday got it all wrong..so whatever..lmao so we had the REAL test today and i did well it was really easy..yeah.....sooo...thats about it....

My Current Mood: excited for food with tracy, and the weeeeeeekend !!!!!!
Listening To: i'm tooooooo sexy for my shirt....too sexy for my shirt....sooooooooo seeeeeeexxxxxy it hurrrrrrrrts.....

2002-10-07T21:40:00.000-04:00
welll...lets see i am getting a bad cold again :(.. we got most of our grades for what we've done so far in school... have an 83 in honors algebra 2..and apparently thats "depressing" to mrs boyhen..according to boyhen, anyone that deserves to be in an "honors" class should have an 88 or higher... i wsa like what the fuck? i try really hard in that class and i can't do well ever, she doesn't teach us anything@!! i got an A+ in algebra 1..and right now all we're doing is reviewing alg. 1 anyway..sooo...that would explain that she doesn't teach...anyway..i have an A - in chemistry, B+ ap lit, and A+ in global...so i guess i just hafta work on that math stuff... well chris really helps me alot...and he's been tutoring me on sundays lately..and last night i actually understood a lot of stuff when he went over it all with me.. hmm...well..tomorrow i hfata get a class picture taken joy..i always look really bad..lmao...no matter how hard i try i always look awful, oh well its just a freakin picture..hmm..well i'm tired and i can't stop eating....gosh all i ever do is eat...and i'm like not hungry at all right now yet all i can think about is food mmmmmmmm...lmao i can't wait till thanksgiving yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ok i need to stop thinking about food...and go to bed heh...I think i'm gonna eat an ice cream sundae before i go to bed.....hehhhhehe gooooooood night everyone :)

My Current Mood: want food
Listening To: Puddle Of Mudd- she fucking hates me

2002-10-06T12:17:00.000-04:00
heey guys...well it's sunday :( i don't want the weekend to be over!!! ughhh i dont wanna go back to school... well anyway we have half days this week because of parent conferences.thank god.!..and christopher's bday is on friday so i'm prolly going over there with the lords then..and then i have sat 2s on sat..adn then i'm leaving for cape cod for the weekend at 1 that day w chris and family.. so yeah it should be an ok week..

My Current Mood: stomach ache :(
Listening To: Prodigy-smack my bitch up

2002-10-01T18:27:00.000-04:00
i feel like shit.. i'm getting a cold and i already feel really crappy.. well..other than that i'm happy.. my mom called chris's mom the other night and asked if chris could come tutor me in math..(and i'll have you all know that we actually did work on math) ...and now i get it!! wahoo.. we spent like 3 hours doing homework and he helped me study for my test..and i had that test today and think i did really well...plus i got good grades on the take home tests also.. yay... soo i still have only a B- in math but oh well i'm sure it will get better ... and every other class i have like an A so i'm less stressed about that stuff...and yay tracie came back to school so now she can drive me again in the morning :) and i'm starting volunteering at the hospital again tomorrow, and then once or twice a week probably after that..so thats always good.. andddddd..lets see.. what else is good in life......ohh yeah i'm going to cape cod with chris and everyone in 2 weekends :) that should be fun.. oh well... still feel shitty..so i'm going to finish math and then prolly go to bed.. byebye

My Current Mood: happy, but feeling crappy hehe that rhymes
Listening To: Eminem- Lose Yourself

2002-09-28T22:55:00.000-04:00
ugh.i just spent like 3 hours doing a chemistry lab anda math take home test...ugh i still have soo much shit to do this weekend, and only 1 more day left to do it.. oh well i'm just in a very bad mood.. chris did the same thing once again.u think he'd learn by now..by i guess not... we were supposed to get a professional photo of us today..and he just never called me back...and i told him yesterday a million fucking times that it was happening today...and then when he did clal back..he goes "why are u mad at me" why the fuck do you think you asshole.. omg i'm so pissed..because then i found out that the whole time he had just been at jon's house...and he could have at least called..cause i ended up once again doing nothing tonight because of him.. i am so pissed off.

My Current Mood: pissed
Listening To: Bush- Glycerine

2002-09-25T20:59:00.000-04:00
omg its only wednesday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this week sucks sooo much.. i'm talkin to greg now..about how the other night was pretty freaking weird... yeah..soo.. i said i'd like to do something w/just him sometime maybe..and for some reason he thinks i hate him all of a sudden...so i have no clue what is going on lol whatever... ughhh ya know what pisses me off more than anything??? people that think they are smarter than you, but really are dumb as hell... i'm not going to say who..but there is this 1 person that is in my AP lit class, and he always gets worse grades than me , yet when he talks to me he acts like i'm retarded and dont know anything...and then in alg 2..he hasn't gotten like 1 passing grade..and then i heard that he caleld chris and told him that i am failing math and that chris needs to comfort me because i'm upset..!!! i was like WHAT THE FUCK! first of all, this person is the 1 fucking failing math, not me....and plus i have a B- *yes, i know thats not good...but..it will get better* and ughhhhhhh.....i wasn't even upset about anything!!!!!!. he was the one freaking out cause he failed the quiz... this pisses me off so much..... i hate people that think they are really smart but are fucking stupid.. and then..he asked me if he could go out on a date with me and chris and a girl( i wont say who) that he likes... i was like what the hell? go out on your own date..we aren't even friends with you and you want us to go with you...we have things to do ;) lol....omg..this kid pisses me off more than anything!!!!..and then...he goes; soo.are you and chris actually going to go to the prom together this year?/ and i was like uhh...no we're not...who would go to the junior prom with someone that they love more than anyhting in the world?? what are you stupid?? omg.. hes like.. yeah chris siad he'd rather sit home and watch tv...and i'm like chris will u go to prom this uyear? and hes like .....of course we're going.. UGHHHHHH sorry everyone hahahah... i just had to talk about that because it is bothering me very much lol.. ohh well.. i am going to bed i just did homework for HOURS literally...

My Current Mood: pissed off
Listening To: Rent- Would You Light My Candle

2002-09-24T20:01:00.000-04:00
ugh it's only tuesday..feels like it is supposed to be friday this week is going by reaaaaaaaaly slow..well im kinda in a bad mood cause i didn't eat today...i decided i need to go on a diet cause i'm fat.. soo yeah i'm eating alot less than normal...which puts me in a pissy mood.. cause i love food.. lol...hmm...well i found out an interesting thing....apparently..everyone is very interested in my sex life... lmao..i'm not quite sure why honestly..but i heard that people like talk about it amongst themselves..(ppl that i don't even know!!) so yeah...thats kinda freaky honestly.....AHH gilmore girls.. gotta go BYE :)

2002-09-22T16:25:00.000-04:00
ahhh...i have wanted to see the movie Swimfan for like a month..and i've planned to go see it like 10 times..but everytime i try..it doesn't work out somehow..so today i thought it would actually work out for once..but nooo... i called chris at fucking 2:00 and he was like "sure. we will go.i just hafta finish my hw ill call you in a little while" it is now 4:30 and he still hsan't called me back and the movie is starting at 4:45 :( ahhhhhhh I am pissed now...cause i've been waiting all fucking day for him..when i could haev just gone with some friends or something...ughhhhhhhh...and i don't understand my math homework and we have a quiz tomrorow.. soo yeah i'm pissed.

My Current Mood: pissy
Listening To: gregs band- Feed My Sheep- What You'll Get (again hehehe)

2002-09-21T12:47:00.000-04:00
well..last night was interesting lol... a little different than i had expected but it was fun....in some ways ..heh...so..me, lindsay, and theresa drive to bristol and go to starbucks where gregs band is playing...and it is like totally packed...and everyone there is all punk, dyed hair, chains, and many many piercings...so we're like yeah, ok... and then theres the 3 of us with our abercrombie outfits lol..so we felt kinda out of place...so we had to sit on the ground, and we got frappucinos and cookies..and then the band came out..and i didn't even think that greg would remember what i looked like since i haven't actually seen him in almost 2 years...(just talked)..and...so he's playing the drums.. and he looked at me and smiled...soo..yeah..they have a really good band though, it's punkish..like new found glory and weezer..(well thats basically the 2 bands' songs that they played)..and so then after the concert..he came over and talked to us..but then..he had to go put all of their band equipment somewhere..but we had to stay at starbucks and wait for a ride home..so he's like...well thanks for comin....bye....and i was like what the fuck..i came 45 mins to see you and thats all you hafta say...but whatever lol..i mean..his whole band was waiting for him in the truck so i guess he had to go...whatever.. http://www.angelfire.com/80s/feedmysheep/ if you go there...you can see a pic of the band.. greg plays the drums :) and then a sample of 1 of their songs is in the "songs' section... (not that any of you care..but....)

My Current Mood: bored
Listening To: Feed My Sheep- What you'll Get

2002-09-19T18:58:00.000-04:00
yay..i'm still really really excited. tomorrow i'm going to bristol to see greg.. heh... :)~ and i'm going to friendlys and subway with tracy right after school.. so tomorrow should be a good day.. :) yayay. now i just hafta find something cool to wear.. haha..well..i just saw lindays' away message on aim about how she is eating pizza..and its making me really hungry.. i almost went to get pizza with theresa but her mom wont let me drive her car hah..and my mom is at open house up at the school, so i can't drive her car :( soo i guess i'll just hafta make my own pizza :) oh well byebye

My Current Mood: EEEEXCITED hehheheh
Listening To: A Moment Like This- Kelly Clarkson

2002-09-15T20:25:00.000-04:00
yayyayay..i'm really excited cause i talked to my friend greg from bristol the other day and he invited me to go see him next friday and then go watch his band play at some place there.. its really cool cause i haven't seen him in a really long time and hes a really cool guy hehe.. ohhh well...its sunday and i just got back from petco and subway with chris.. fun heh.... we bought fishys :) except that they are snake food :( well im tired and hafta do more math homework.. :( byebye

My Current Mood: excited :)~
Listening To: Big Machine - GooGoo Dolls

2002-09-14T19:22:00.000-04:00
heey everyone..well its saturday and i am bored :) i just got home from the mall with tracy.. it was fun..bought clothes...again heh.. this weekend is going by really slow to me for some reason, not that i'm complaining or anything ..but i dunno.. hmm...well yesterday i went to chris's house after school and we had a picnic and then watched tv all night.. i'm excited cause for his bday i get to go to cape cod with them and the lords for a long weekend. :) i looooooove him... hehehh... anyway... hmm i am taking the sat II espanol though at 8am in the morning the day that we go.. joy..

when the world keeps spinning around
my world's upside down and i wouldn't change a thing
i've got nothing else to lose
i lost it all when i found you, and i wouldn't change a thing.

hehe.. thats a really cool song..you should all download it heh.. Lifehouse: spin
oh well i'm bored, and going to go find something to do.. :)

My Current Mood: bored.. headache
Listening To: Lifehouse, Spin

2002-09-08T19:23:00.000-04:00
yay..i finally got my computer back..the power fuse broke or something with that huge thunder storm last week. well..my dad was in colorado..so last week i got the car basically the whole time.. i drove to school a few times, and to the mall, movies, shopping etc all weekend.i had lots of fun. ohh i quit my job too cause i was getting too stressed out with school, homework, and just life..and plus i didn't like it very much. so my mom was pissed but oh well.. i guess i'll have to find some other way to earn money for a car. my mom is like trying to teach me that i need to buy my own car, but yet she keeps letting me use hers all the time.. *shrugs* oh well :)

so anyway.. hmm. what did i do this weekend....., friday---i went to chris's house after school and then he came to my house and then we drove to the mall. he bought me clothes cause i had no money and i will pay him back tomorrow when the banks open :).. umm..oooohh!! we went to the pet store in the mall and there was the CUTEST dog in the world there..omg it was adorable..it was a weimerainer and so we got to take it into 1 of those little fenced in areas and hold it and play with it :) i want it soooooo bad!!!..hehe anyway...umm..saturday---i my mom tried to teach me standard on my dads car since he was in colorado...ha..no luck there... i get in the car and i go, and i'm doing perfectly well..then i stop at a stop sign, and start again and i'm doing fine...then...the next stop sign.. haha...well..lets just say we went backwards instead of forwards...hahah...i couldn't start the freaking thing!! i stalled literally like 100 times probably..and we rolled backwards about 50 feet.. heh..oh well tracy will teach me someday in her car :)... hmm..then tracy and britt came over and we acted stupid for a while and sat around..then i went to chris's house and we went to the roxbury block party with chris lord and reid allen.. it wasn't much fun at all..i basically sat alone the whole night lol...they all went off being boys lol...aka being stupid.. hehe... then today.. (sunday) i went to the mall and costco and office maxx etc with my parents and then came home and ate and did homework..oh well i am tired of boring everyone with the details of my weekend :)

My Current Mood: full of pizza hehe
Listening To: A Moment Like This- Kelly Clarkson *American Idol*

2002-09-02T22:42:00.000-04:00
:( long weekend has come to an end.. well anyway..i had a good weekend..today..i picked up chris at around 12:30..and we went to the lords to see if chris lord wanted to come but he coudln't..so then we went to the mall...and basically just walked around for like 20 mins and then decided to leave cause we were bored and then we went to arbys,and then to stop adn shop and he bought me like 30 dollars worth of makeup hehe..even though he hates when i wear make up.. :) he's so kind i looove him heh. :) ..then i went home and did some homework and watched tv..now i can't sleep.. soo i'm here..i hafta work tomrorow again :( it sucks, i dread it soo much. and this upcoming saturday i hafta work for 8 hours!!! ahhh shit..that is going to suck SO much!!..ooo well..i get to drive to school tomrorow!!!!!!!!! and the next day!! cause my dad is in colorado, so my mom can just drive his car for the week..and soi can drive hers.. yaya..so i hafta pick up tracie britt and jon tomorrow morning... *im just rambling on to no one* hehe..i feel kinda dumb..oh well...ooo..my mommy said that summer after senior year me and chris can go to france on vacation for a graduation present!! :) that would be fun . ;) hmm..that reminds me.. for his bday in october..apparently his parents said i could go to cape cod with them for 4 days i think...and so it will be me, chris, chris and jon lord, and jade...and apparently i have to share a bed with jade! she hates me though and i barely even know her...hah..this should be fun..i'm like to chris "great...i'm ONLY doing this because it's your bday and i love ya" haha...it is going to be awful!!! oh well..i'm tired of just basically talking to myself.. heh...

My Current Mood: NOT tired!!!!!!! at all
Listening To: Sharp Hint of New Tears- Dashboard Confessional

2002-08-31T12:09:00.000-04:00
ahh it was nice to sleep in again :) well i hafta work today at 1 :( i hate work, i guess it's just cause i don't really know what i'm doing yet, and i get stressed cause there's so much crap to remember..oh well i have to work for 5 hours today too!! that's way too much for me.. heh...then i'm going to chris's house for a barbeque or something ..fun.. yay it's a long weekend too :)

2002-08-29T21:14:00.000-04:00
well...first day of school yesterday..it was an okay day i guess..i have global, ap lit, chemistry, and honors algebra 2...so..4 academics is gonna be hard but oh well. i'm pushing myself this year...so when i got home from school yesterday..i cried..it was basically just an "i don't want to go back ever again" cry time..heh..i was just stressed cause it was the first day of school and i spent 4 hours on homework...and then i went to my first day of work, and he was like you don't have sneakers, so i couldn't work cause i didn't wear sneakers..so i felt really stupid...and went home and just went to bed and cried..well...my first real day of work was today..it was kinda hard..but i'll get the hang of it im' sure...well..tomorrows FRIDAY!!! yayay!!...well tomorrow is my grandmas bday so..i'm going out to dinner w/a bunch of people... oh well..i just spent hours on homework, and now it's time to go eat and talk on the phone :) hehe.. *that is, if chris has finished his calc homework..*

My Current Mood: happy :)~
Listening To: Third Eye Blind- Deep Inside Of You

2002-08-27T21:20:00.000-04:00
it's the last night of summer! :( this is extremely depressing.. i'm listening to a sad song about the end of summer too.. well...i read most of my last book today..still have a few more acts to read in it..but i'm almost done!! ..i just got back from friendlys with tracy we got ice cream sundaes :) huge ones! :) hehe.. and i bought straightening gel so i can straighten my hair tomorrow :) i saw shaina at shaws today and she said i looked older w/straight hair..yay hehe... :) oh well i am going to finish my book and take a shower.. "so long sweet summer, i stumbled upon you and gratefully basked in your rays.."

My Current Mood: lonely
Listening To: Age Six Racer- Dashboard Confessional

2002-08-26T10:53:00.000-04:00
:( i'm sooo pissed.. chris and i were supposed to go to lake compounce today and i had to try to persuade him for hours yesterday becaues he doesn't like rides..and finally he said he'd go..so i call my mom and ask when it opens, and she's like..it is closed.. :( waaa this sucks soo much..i wanted to go really bad too..so then chris was like 'its' ok, i promise you'll have a fun day tomorrow, i'll figure out something to do that will be fun' ..so i was lke fine whatever...and then he caleld me last night and was like..really pissed because an appraiser is coming to his house tuesday so his dad is making him clean the house and mow the lawn etc..so he can't do anything today :( ..except..he siad he can prob. do something later tonight if he does all of the work fast..so if he does..we're going to boulders inn for dinner *i'm making him wear a suit too* haha..and then we're going to the beach...soo hopefully he'll finish everything early..cause i'm k inda excited about it...anyway..i hafta finish Much Ado About Nothing too..i'm on page like 10...lol...guys..i don't wanna go back to school!!!!! at all!!!!!!! i'd rather die seriously... :( this is so depressing.

My Current Mood: anxious
Listening To: Vanessa Carlton- Ordinary Day

2002-08-24T19:05:00.000-04:00
wow today flew by. i didn't wake up till 12..yay! i finally got some sleep. that's probably the latest i slept all summer, compared to last summer when there was barely a day that i woke up earlier than 2..hehe...hmm..what did i do today?..well i went shopping with my mom for my gramma's birthday and then we went out for chinese food. and i bought hair dye at cvs. so i came home and dyed my hair dark brown w/blonde highlights, but the highlights look awful, so i think i'm gonna dye it back later.. it sucks .. hmm..ohh then while i was in the shower, jade labella called me my mom said so i freaked out..cause everyone thinks i hate her just cause i don't ever want to hang out with her and jon and chris at the same time.. chris automatically thinks that i need to do things with them just cause jon's his best friend and jade's his gf.. ahh..i like her. i think she's really really nice but she's just alot different than me, and so is jon... well ..anyway..so i got really scared, so i called her back and she just wanted to know where chris was... what a relief hahha...i was like ohhhhhh that's what u wanted..okkk thank god!!... lol..then my mom made me go to blockbuster to get a movie for my bro and a waited in line for like an hour.. there were tons of people there.. now im' home :).. i read about a page of much ado about nothing today..hehe... still have about 100 to go.. ahhhh...i don't wanna go back!!

My Current Mood: happy :)~
Listening To: Nirvana- Smells Like Teen Spirit